Chile, I took the LSAT.

I took the LSAT last Saturday. I am taking a deliberate pause to accommodate your virtual applause. Thank you so much.

Let me set the scene. I decided in 2015 when I dropped out of my masters program that I just didn't need any more formal schooling. I knew/know I'm smart, but I just couldn't seem to focus so I went ahead and counted myself out of earning any more letters to put behind my name. I was cool with it* and just ready to establish my career.

After 5 years of pretty underwhelming jobs, I had a breakthrough and was working in education and community relations. In 2018, I lost my job, and my career trajectory kind of hit a stall and after some consideration and some motivating talk from my dad, I decided to confront my fear of school and pursue law school - which is what I wanted to be when I graduated from high school almost 10 years ago. I've spent the last 5 months reacquainting myself with the idea and getting my law school ducks lined tf up. And I took the January LSAT.

In less than six months, I went from literally letting fear and doubt win and keep the door closed - to taking a major step and saying yes to pursuing something I had long disqualified myself from. 

I went from digging my heels in to ‘no more school for me 🙍🏾‍♀️’ to researching and registering and taking the LSAT and making moves to get my transcripts (because transcript holding is a SCAM and that's the first damn law I'm fighting once I pass the bar) and writing my personal statement and mapping out a timeline for this journey... and that is to be commended. 

My best friend texted me when I finished the test and asked how I feel. My first response was to try and gauge my score. I'm like, "Mmm, I had kinda ran out toward the end but I think I did well. Those logic games kinda tugged at my wig though." He responded, "YOU DID ITTTT! I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!" And just like that, he helped me stop and SIT in the accomplishment of it. Like, him celebrating that I even took this first step was just the reminder I needed to stop trying to quantify the steps I am taking toward my next level because they are ALL valuable and admirable. And as cliche as it sounds, the journey really is just as magical as the destination. Whew, my tribe is everything.

So, ask me again, how do I think I did? How do I feel? I feel at peace, and accomplished as fuck. I'm going to law school, that's how I think I did. Dassit.

PS - Yes, that's my big apple head cropped onto Olivia Pope's body because #ItsHandled, PERIODT. *breathes* JBW, JD soon come.

*I wasn't cool with it.